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That's nice, but there is always a "but".
Do these people really need that stuff? If they can buy a travel ticket they can buy what they wish for.
Was thinking than probably random people who never had this opportunity to fly somewhere or simply they don't have money for this kind of experience might be earned more this kind of generosity. Aren't we "fighting" for equality between us?
But I am glad for them. That's nice thought too and good advertisement for WestJet company and they made happy faces more happier! Thank You for that!

I wish for World Peace. Is that just a stupid dream?


I have understood the balance. I believe so. Everything has to be in balance. Like a bad and a good days. If we wouldn't get face to face with bad/worse things we might never appreciate the good ones. Like if (people who loves sunny days) it might be just sunny all the time, the sunny days we might start to call bad ones.
Like we know, people are different each and other. I love rainy days and sunny days too. Sometimes we have to understand than if something bad happens it means something even worse didn't. Sometimes bad things happens with us just to understand than we have to move on or we are doing something wrong. That's why it's important to fallow your inside passion, " listen to yourself" and do what you like to do. Don't be a slave. Burn for your passion and put your heart into it. Inspire yourself and be brave. Remember, life starts out of your comfort zone. Sometimes we have to take that crazy bet and just do things you once said: I will never do this and that! Try!

Some people will try. Some has already done it and someone has to wait for it, because it's not the right time. What's important is to listen to your heart, soul or 7 mind or however you call it. Like I did today. Thanks to my inside voice I am still alive.

And don't hide that lovely sweater, dress or shirt for some special in cases. We never know when that day comes. So walk those high-hills if you want to and feel beautiful every day!
.. because you already are.

#99

Karate.

Watching the Karate-kid.
- you said, when life knocks you down you have to rise up and fight back. Why wouldn't you help me to rise up?
-Because I don't want to see you to get hurt no more. Why you want to get back there? You have prove enough to anyone.
- Yes, but I am still afraid. And tonight when I leave, I don't want to be scared anymore. 
The most important battles in life comes in times when you have to fight your fear. Fear if you are not as pretty as you wish for and that boy from parallel class will not like you so you decide to hide and never talk to him. You don't even give yourself a chance. Fear as you are not as smart as other colleges so you never speak up your mind in companies meetings. Fear than you are not good as you thought you were. But you are. Your own battles and self-esteem is more important than what others think. The fight against your own fears is the key to changes and be better and get closer to the imagine of the man you want to be. One day. It's all about never giving up and you will see the progress.
For me it's battle called " to become the best girly floorball goalkeeper". Why? Well, I like to aim to my goals. The important thing is to believe yourself, do your best, progress and don't straggle when pressure get too heavy. You will become the best when you will feel than there is no more space to grow and development is reached and you have no more ideas and feedbacks to do better, but is it possible? I believe there is the limit. The lowest one and the highest one. " reach the stars"- that's where I aim to go. Important to trust yourself and  don't let the people let you down. You are as good as you think you are. If it turns out than it's  not, pick up that battle and fight to get there. " Keep on going. Every step my gets heavier, but don't stop. The view on the top is beautiful."

Karate.
I was wondering than it would be awesome to quit everything right now and go to China or India to some cloister- meditate and learn some martial laws and technique. Learn the new language, found the peace and true essence of  my own soul. Breath the grace of an mountain air and fall in love in cherry blossomed valleys.  Draw a forest full of sunshine which brake it's way throe the dark tree trunks, imagine the river and waterfalls falling down from the star full of sky. Pick up a dead butterfly and gentle kiss it's wings with tears in eyes and hope than one day he will fly again.. and he does, just because of the miracle of love.

I want to go to place where there is no material surviving needed, where you can learn your balance between your body and mind. Where you found the true peace inside of yourself and your tears are not going to be questioned. I want to shave my hair off, dress into the simple sheet and my only make up will be my smile so no one will judge me by my looks and beauty, because everyone to anyone is beautiful when they found their selves. Live together with tigers and feel no fear. No rush. No competition. Found the peace. Calmness.

#99

Yin and Yang

Balance.
For quite a while I believed than a goalie is 80% of the team. I believed it so badly because I wanted to "prove" than goalie is more than just a crazy one who sit's in net and takes the shoot. I am tired of this meaning which comes all over again and again every time it starts discussion about goaltending and how freak you have to be to become a goalie and voluntary decide to sit in net and take the shoots one after another.

It has changed.

I think it's every and each goalie who "decides" this number and pro-cent of his value of team. It's the talent goalie has, the hard work it puts during every practice to save the every shoot in net just to do not fail in game and high-undiscovered passion and responsibility for goaltending (?). Goalie is the last one in who you can trust and who might take that fast-speed-close-aimed-shoot. When you give/say this trust/words to a goalie as a coach, as a player, as a dad or as a fan of the team, it means the whole World to a goalie or at least it should be like that (that's the way I feel). If goalie accepts it and understands this precious value he have, he is making a strong base for teammates/ players. With a strong background you can focus on feature game and build a strong "monster"/ a castle/ a tower/ a victory based on first detail- a goalie. For a goalie it's easily to freak out to have so much responsibility on his shoulders, but the most important is to have a faith in players than they will help you by doing their best in given situation and players have to have faith in goalie, than he is there to take that shoot no matters what. It's like Yin and Yang. Without one you can't have other.

(Maybe, if teams may focus more on goalies on practices like they do right now, the wining might be easier and loosed goals wouldn't be so many ?
There are teams which puts a lot of focus on goalie training/ exercises- aren't they succeeded a lot lately?
If goalie have no serious ambitions to become better or take this huge responsibility to become as stable background for team, than team have to work double to succeed? )

Players all together is like a heavy, metallic boll. It doesn't matter in what kind of substance each of them are, all together they mixes together and make a strong unity. They play together, they passes smooth, they shoot, they score! Goalie is like a floor. The ground, the material which holds the team. If this base is made of paper, it's easy to break true (team scores but always falls back because they lose too many goals). If this base is made of wood or iron, the ground is safe and stable and is easily to be trusted in this background.

It's like Yin and Yang. Without one you can't have other. Yin are the players and Yang is the goalie(for example.) If you focus on one and you forget other, you higher the difference between them. Still you can succeed, but this unity is broken, sick I might say.
Water and Fire.

In my opinion the goalie should be like a calm water, with stillness and at the same time be explosive like the waves in ocean which can come like from nowhere and become calm again. Goalie should have this secret and ability to show the calm and aggressive way at the same time.
Players should be like lightning-ball. Fire! Full of passion to score and never light off! Fight and be a warrior no matters what!

Goalie have to be outstanding and a bit focused by itself in my opinion.
It's difference between a goalkeeper, a good goalkeeper and very good goalkeeper.
Probably, the mission for goalie in team is to earn that trust I am talking above and keep it.
It stays 50-50. It's the difference between making the score and save the shoots, both of them is worthy 50% each... just a goalie takes that responsibility alone and carry it by himself. Not anyone can become a good goalkeeper, but anyone can become a goalkeeper. To be a very good goalkeeper you have to love this position and have to be ready to have this responsibility to be able to carry it by yourself. Your 50 % of the game and 100% of your own performance.

#99

The man under the helmet.

One day I was at "Møllers bil" here in Sala and put a stickers with my teams logo on my teammates cars.
I wasn't at that best mood that day. Emotions was high up like waves and next moment it 's calm again.

That's the day you miss the family most of all. Miss the dad and sisters in homeland, miss the oldest sister and a cat. Miss the hug from your siblings and mostly from you mam. Like a child I want to run into hers paws and cry on her's chest while she cuddles me and palms away the tears and I listen to hers soft voice like a melody while she says words: everything is going to be fine, sweetheart. Be strong.
It's 8 years from now she is in England. It's 6th year I am away from my family. Facing the life alone, fighting the small battles, making new connections, surviving in business world, get hurt and fall in love again, making mistakes and choosing the right things to do, making the difference, falling down and getting up, falling down and getting up again.

People recognize me as a goalkeeper. That's what I am good at. Latvian National Team's goalkeeper and Salas new goalie. It's like my cover or "suit" every day or a sticker on my forehead- Da goalie. The girl under the helmet. Not complaining just facing the fact.


I put the stickers on my teammates cars.
Goalies are like a casual cars, players are the cars- cabriolet, because they don't wear the helmet, so they don't have a roof.( Ha! They don't have a roof! )
Goalie put the helmet on and cover all the face, hides behind the windows, under the roof, no one can see their true emotions under the helmet, it's hidden while players face is showed in all magazines and in public from the seat they are sitting. You may say (as a player) than we (goalies) are just full of fear that's why we wear helmet, but no. We wear helmet's because it's painful to get the shoot in face, just you know :) .

I don't say than players don't have an emotions. They surely dodely do.

I like helmets. I like to be a goalie. I like to hide. Like to hide that girl which only few have seen and have been sitting in the same car as I am. Close, in front seat beside me and get known the "essence" I am made of.
To hide that sincere, tender, fragile, crystal-pure girl which's inside of me. Inside of everyone. Everyone.

#99

what's the difference?

Good. Better. Your best.
What's the difference between these three performances?

Good performance.
T-shirt lever: barley wet/ dry.
That's something you are good at without specific focus set by yourself or pressure from someone other. Your casual skills and talent in level you feel 100%. Doing what you are good at quite simply and not more. That's a good performance.


Better performance.
T-shirt lever: wet.
This performance includes discipline, aiming, reaching, set the goals, never giving up and try again and again. Doing this performance with high responsibility to yourself you reduce difference between casual/ good performance and the better performance. Quite simply- you higher the level of your's good performance.
(In my opinion, if there might be a scale to measure the levels of skills/talent between two athletes, which have been in same level in their given skills/ talent, after one of them have been done his good and other have been done his better performances, we say in one month period, the athlete who have been done his better will be better at his good performance than other one after a given month period).Your better performance is all the time in progress.

Best performance.
T-shirt level: extra wet.
I would like to call these as performances when you have put all your energy out, you have been fighting with yourself mentally while your body have been wanted to quit. After this performance you might start to shake and even cry, get week in your knees (perhaps), because your body have went through terrific shock which you have been progressed by not giving up. Your body will be fine, because your brain (you) understand than it's nothing serious and you have used all your adrenalin and that's why these " symptoms". ( In my opinion, you should be worried about your body in times when you have skipped  doing " better performance",we say in practices, and from doing your "good performance" you have jumped to "best performance" skipped the "doing your better performance" . It's not healthy for your heart first of all. By skipping "better performance" it means your heart haven't been in intense practice before and again, if we might use this scale, we " may see" the difference between one athlete and other and their body/ heart fitness according to given time period.) Best performances comes with mental preparation and with physical background. It's easier to give your best performances and deliver them more often in times if you are in progress of better performance. By giving your best performance I promise you, your emotions are going to be priceless, you will understand the value of hard work, tears, pushing the limits and inside glory to yourself. You will experience the triumph as an athlete and as a person at the same time.

There is actually one more performance:
The Very Best Performance.
I believe than this performance you have to own as a dream, as a goal where to aim against. The very best performance becomes your limit. Your highest limit. Sky? Stars? (Read: How to give your best performance.) It's up to you.

#99

Levels of thoughts.

What do you do as a goalie/ player/ coach after lost game?

We lost today. 2-3. So close but not enough. I succeed " my-every-game-goal":  max 1 goal for every period what makes equal total 3 goals for 1 game. It makes me elated when I have(can) done(do) better. It makes me feel good when I succeed " my goal". Kind of. But today it's tough. As a goalie I shouldn't take the "miss boll" too serious and just let it be.. Just forget. But today is not that day.
I just want to do better than I did today. If I take this step it means I am going to higher the quality, focus, discipline- Everything! And it means I am going to reach the higher level.
But there are so many levels. When you thought you have reached your level 10 it turns out there is level 11. There is so many levels.. Maybe I should relax and instead get one level down? (like that exercise with steps- one step back, two forward. One step back, two forward. ) That's not giving up. That's one of the scariest and one of the toughest steps in athletes life to face this fact and take the step backwards, I think. Be patient, wait for all's best even if you are ready to fight for next level. Is this right?
If you are climbing towards to the top with your climber-friends, you should stick together and stay patient. You will reach the top sooner or later. (Only if you don't decide to go home.)
Levels in life.

I should listen to my friends and just stop think so much. I come home after a game, got some food, took a shower, fall into a pillows in front of TV and tried to " not to think". Went to sleep and tried not to think.
But thought like a worm in the apple goes through you every step/ mistake/ good things you did.
Took my shoes on and took a long walk with my thoughts under the rainy sky. There is some things you can't change. If you do, trust me, you will not be happy and after a while you will be back on your feet by being yourself again.

Sometimes I complain and agree than I think too much, but that's amazing where these thoughts have brought me. If I start to wonder about something for sure I will finish this thought directly or after a long while and put it in the shell as a book. After a while I might pick it up again and re-think and put it in another shell. That's who I am, and I don't feel bad about it. To be able to think brings you to whole new " way of thinking". Once you own your own thought what connects with some other(thought of yours) or others (person) thoughts, you experience something very special as a person you are. It's "something" what lifts up your spirit.

#99

Laumas "Goalie Area's" Theory.

Do you see the net, small square and bigger one?
Good.
This post is going to be about it. About your second home, goalie! Plus it's going to be seriously fun post. One day you will have cute goalie kids, you can tell this to them as bed-time story! They sure will love it!

The net and the small square is your home. You are the only one who have full access to this area. If someone steps into this are- he/she is going to jail (getting 2 minutes penalty), right? You are the only one who owns this area. (Not even referees! Not even coach on practice.. sometimes they do step behind you just to " talk" or "see your movement" in goal or just "see team from different perspective" as they say but it's all about that little square. Everyone knows it's just for goalies, but still everyone secretly want to step into this spot.  :))

The bigger square which is surrounding your " home" is your garden. The white stripe is the fence. Quite low one but still it counts. The garden is your territory too. You have 5 dogs(players) totally. Usually 3 of them is running around and having fun in your " evil neighbors" (opponent team) area. When neighbors dogs are mad, they attack and tries to have fun, playing together and " catches the ball" at your area. Than you have to be awake! Than all 5 dogs of yours are home. 2 of your dogs are your very best friends, these two are your guard dogs. You can trust all five of them and they trust you, but as a goalie- never trust them completely. Like a dogs do they are " catching the ball" and sometimes it slips into the house. That's not aloud! Sometimes one of your guard dog runs to play with other ones, but you can always count on one of your five ones than one of them will always stay at home.
As a good owner of your garden you have to be "awake", be aggressive if someone uninvited steps into this area! If post-man (opponent teams player) gives you a newspaper (he is ready for a shoot), you leave your house(shoot out) and grab it(doing the save) and go quickly back into the house. If you leave your doors (the net) open for too long time, the dogs may miss the ball and it gets into the house. And that means game over for dogs and for you too.

The great owner speaks and reacts according to situation, the good owner keeps calm and stay aggressive according to situation. Smart dogs listen and reacts. Make the dogs feel safe, take good care of your house and that's how your dogs will feel the safe with you. The way you react and feel, the way you make feel and react others. Keep communication, be polite and sincere to your "pets" because you have to love them with all your heart to be a good owner.

This is goalie thinking. This probably might be our little revenge to all who have called us as freaks, psychopaths, masochist, retarded and just crazy ones. We know you have been just kidding, so do we too. Dogs are our very best friends in life, that's true! Balance.

I love my players and coaches. They are my heroes. They keep it real for me to do my best. If I see one or many of my player by doing their best and pushing their limits and working their ass out, I instantly become as one of them. If there is a hope in this game, if I see the hope in other eyes, I am ready to fight until bleeding fingers. So much I love my players and their passion. So much I love this game and my passion.

We, goalies, deeply respect our players for courage and spark into their eyes by protecting us by taking the shoot on them instead aimed to goal and fighting in front of us like a soldiers, like a warriors. I like to think than coaches are leaders of the war (game) and kings of the castle(net), players are their army and goalies are the closest one to the king who are the last ones who protect the castle and always takes the last shoot for the king.

#99

My Goalie Story.

My floorball story starts at grade 4th when I was 10 years old. I started as a defender, I really liked it.

Where I come from we didn't have a sport hall, so we was practicing out of the village at some old canteen where all the equipment was thrown out and we had a free local with really bad floor where some pieces was lifting up from the floor and windows was covered with plastic material. It was freaking cold in wintertime, but my first Coach was the man of Gold. He fixed some old, quite big heater which sounded a lot. But we didn't care about it! Our Coach had fixed the very simple sticks, those who had better financial situation had better ones like Canadian, we didn't had a bag full of balls, just few of them. There wasn't any tactics in my first team, we get our own role, we got some information about this role on field and we just played for fun by trying to do our best. On practices we just played 2 teams against each other. Doesn't matters how old or what gender you were, we was put in one of the team and we just play.
On one of the practice we was missing a goalkeeper and my Coach asked if there is anyone who would like to try out this role. I don't remember how but I ended up there that day and that was the day I become a goalkeeper. I was 11 years old girl with no game experience even not as a defender, it was the late August or beginning of September and I started my goalie career against top team after few days practice. We lost, but we usually lose to this team with higher numbers. I got a many nice words from teammates and a Coach. It made me proud and by every practice and game I become better and better.

During the Primary School I went to Music school too and believe or not I was playing violin. Sometimes I came to lesson with nail pealed of the top of the finger, but there is no excuse, I have to keep on playing. I had violin lessons just 2 times a week -Wednesdays and Saturdays. On Wednesdays I had practice so I always get quickly away from lesson but on Saturdays, if I didn't had a game, I got " punished" and was usually at the school playing violin until the last student goes home, than it was my turn. My teacher was the great man, he saw the talent in me so he made me to stay long hours to play violin because I wasn't practicing almost nothing at all, what a violin players have to do. But still somehow I finished Music School with great grades. It had gave me a great lessons to do things even what you don't like to do. Funniest is than nowadays I am still playing violin and I love it! Thanks to my teacher for this hard work and not giving up on this kid.

I could be a great violin player, but I feel more common to floorball. I believe it's all because of being active and since I was a baby I got asthma what made no ability for me to be a participant in sport lessons for a while at my childhood and running was like a "straight way to death". I hated it! I wanted to do sports so badly so maybe one of the reason why I become as a goalie was than as a goalie you don't have to run and simply saying- you can be lazy and just sit on your ass and breathe calmly. I am a fighter! When I was a kid I was spending a lot of time at hospitals with a medicine in my veins and lungs. From my childhood I remember there was the time I wasn't able to eat candy so I gave it away to my sisters. I was hipper- active kid. I don't remember a lot of that time from my life, but my mam once told me than since I was a kid I had learned by myself to control my breathing. She told me than there have been times I wasn't able to go outside on hill and play with other kids. Sometimes I did, but than my sisters carried my home on their shoulders. My doctors was very skeptical about my participating in sport lessons and even about my surviving as a kid. They were more and more surprised about my progress year by year. My family doctor was great, she let me do sports at school with high responsibilities asked from myself.  Could it be Goal-tending what " had healed" me? It become better and better.

When I was around 12-13 years old I was even playing with my local men team and was their goalie. Loved every shoot that came straightly to net and which I saved. That was the great feeling to be the only girl in a men tournament for sure and I loved that feeling than in front of me stood the guys who protected me and actually made me to feel safe. I was very shy girl at that age. Under the helmet I was their little hero and I did my best to make them proud of me and don't let them down.. I was their goalkeeper.

Age 14 starts my " National team goalkeeper" story and after 10 years it's still to be continued. First I got invited to Latvian National Team as a participant and only later there was some U-19 National Team practices. I played my first Championship and at the same time the very 1st Women U-19 Championships in Finland, Tampere city in 2004. With Latvian National Team went to Singapore on 2005. Here is the rest of my results as participant in Latvian National team.
2005 I "got a call" from Sweden, Endre IF. They saw me in Finland playing and showed the interests. My team mate Anete helped Endre to contact me. Endre wanted me to move to Gotland already than but I was just finished the primary school and that would be tough for me to study in Sweden in Swedish. So I and my wise mam decided to wait until I finish Secondary School and than make this subject actual again.
2008 from my sweet little town Ligatne I moved to Visby. Only 19 years old, still shy and searching for the "I" in herself.

My goals wasn't high at that time. I was so grateful than I have got there and was ready to sit on bench and learn and grown and simply become better. That was my first year. That was my goal at that time. I do learned a lot and got some games on my shoulders.
The 2nd year in Endre I started to show some ambitions, but not quietly high ones. I was still insecure about myself, but started to feel than my time is coming. Grateful for this time, lessons I learned and games I got to play.
The 3rd year (pre-season) started very good, I felt strong and ready to fight for " The first goalie" place, but it wasn't meant to happened this year. In last training game right before season starts I got my shoulder out of the place and I took 3 month at least to build those small muscles back on place. I was mentally broke and couldn't help myself.
But then started the period which changed things. Let's call it" Rise from ashes". I hated to sit on bench, I started to do my best every practice even if sometimes I was going true pain. This is something I learned form my friend. She was my teacher at this point. She didn't let the team down. She fight until the end every time, she did her best every game even if I knew than she is in pain, don't know about practices because than I was fully focused on my performance. I started to show ambitions to coaches, I started to show who I am made of. I wasn't satisfied enough about the games I got to play. I wanted to feel the " top 5 team" shoots on me too. I asked for feedback, I asked for explanation. I remember I asked what I have to do to become better? I got 3 things I have to be better at. I got chance at same weekend. I did all of the 3 things. I was the best player of that game and even the articles title was based on one of the thing what was in my: " to do list". Year 3rd finished like it was. But I appreciate it. I gave some hard time for coaches, hope they forgives me. It just wasn't meant to happened.
Season 4th started quite stable. There was no first goalie in team and in beginning it really felt like that. We was named as elites best goalie couple. And that's what simply we was.. Until half of the season. Call me how ever you want to call me, but I started to feel than the role have changed. Leaders strictly kept on saying than there is no first goalie in team, but you can't fool the intuition of mine.
And than started the period I have named as a "break down" part of my goalie career.
I had finally stand of for myself for last year and wasn't afraid to ask and discuses and argue about things which was important to me and my goalkeeping development. I asked the coach why I can't goal-tend this game and he gave me the answer I will remember for all of my life. He compare us two goalies as a deserts. (Don't laugh, it's actually very good compering at the end) He said than someday he feels like going for this cake and someday for another but he can't have them both at the same time. He had a point. I just couldn't make him to explain why he like the one of the dessert more than other constantly. Maybe it was the structure and it was important to him what this "Cake" is made of/in?
Few games left before play-offs. I was so tired of this. I understood than I was using my energy more on this " fight" than by better using it in practices, but even in practices (so felt it for me) it doesn't matters how good I did because the decision was already clear. I gave up.(This is something I couldn't forgive myself for a long time after understanding than I gave up on thing what I love the most) I said to coach than I take the place on the bench. He already had decided what's best for team, and it felt useless to steal his energy away from him by fighting against. He just did what's best for the team in his (and mine) opinion, and so did I in mine. I gave up and took the place as 2nd goalie. That was the day I killed the passion about being goalie. I hated it! I killed my dream and goals. I smashed down as a goalkeeper. It wasn't meant to happened this season ether. I thought I am done with goaltending forever!
Season 5th I decided to do something I really loved to do- I started to play as defender in Endres Juniors Team in 2nd division. But at the end I understood than I really suck at it. Sala Silverstaden from elite showed interest about me, but how could I become their goalkeeper if that was the role I hated the most at that moment?
There was some games my coach put me in goal. I remember one important game for my team and coach asks me if I would like to go to net. I said I don' t want to.. but situation was like there was no other choice. So I decided to do what's best for team. I remember I was siting in locker room on bench, putting on my Blindsave kneepads and silently crying. Tears was falling down from my eyes even under the helmet during the game. But we won. It was so nice to see other girls so happy for this victory, but I was smashed down and out of energy. So much I hated this situation, so much I didn't wanted to go in net. So much I hated to be a goalkeeper.

In beginning of season I got invitation from Latvian National Team to Qualification in January to this years World Championship in Brno, Czech Republic. I feel high responsibility and love to my country so I started to push myself to do something about my " goalie problem". I started to practice again as goalie with my cousins team Hansa Houburg, I went to legendary Warberg Goalie Camp and learned a lot of great stuff there. Every penny I paid, it was so worth it! It was tough. Like a rehabilitation. But I was back on track.
In Qualification I even got an award as best goalie!
The two most important games- qualification to division 1, I was the goalkeeper. I did as much as best I could.. we succeed. And these was the 2 last games for me as a Endres Goalkeeper. That was the goodbye gift for Endre from me. I wasn't the one who score, but I was definitely the one who kept it real to go up to division 1 for this Team. Lovely, young girls. Wish all the best in this year! Same for the whole Endres Club and friends of mine.

It may sound unfair and wrong the way I am talking about my experience, but that's the way it was and I am grateful for everything what have happened to me and what I have went thrue. Ofcourse there was great times and awesome saves and stunning games by my performance. This is my experience told (GoalieThinking) started from my hometown club Ligatne, guys team, National Team and my best times from Endre. This club have gave me a huge understanding and the mental gift during last 5 years on Gotland. This Club have developed this Goalkeeper. I could even say I was Endres student. I have graduated this school. It just turned out I am not their goalkeeper. These 5 years have made a person I am right now.

" What's past, belongs to past. If I may carry memories of Endre on my shoulders means they get heavy and it's hard to aim to victory with my 100% best. Ofcourse, deep inside of my heart is the place I will always call "Endres heart", but right now it beats only for one club- Sala Silverstaden IBK. And that's all what matters." //#99

Right now I am standing in position as next Salas Silverstaden's goalkeeper and I am ready to fight!
I am standing here as goalkeepers coach.
I stand here as person who had attend two of the best Goalie Camps: Warberg Goalie Camp and Blindsave Goalie Camp.
I am standing here as participant as goalie of Latvian National Team for World Championships this December.
I stand here right now with my belief as a goalkeeper stronger than ever.

#99

Where to start?

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The very first step is to ask yourself- Do I want this and how much I am ready to give? Don't forget to give yourself an answer. When you have an answer it means you have made kind of promise to yourself and it means you can't cheat, you can't give up other ways you let yourself down.

In my opinion the most important step before every practice, before every small battle you going to fight with yourself is preparation. If you do it right and with high responsibility to your body, the half of the job for the day is done.
This is the most important step- Connect your mind with your body. Feel every muscle you are stretching, feel your inside temperature and adrenalin pumping into your veins. Feel the running difference between warming up and condition training. Feel the asphalt, dirt, grass or what ever it is under your feet. Feel the texture of your running suit. Feel the air around you and sunlight on your skin. Understand why are you doing this. Simply saying feel your body. If you still haven't discovered the limits of your body, do that! No one else can do it for you and no one will do it. Why don't start today? You have to live with yourself until rest of your life. Do it when you feel ready for it.

You can't lift a thumb up without a signal sent from your brain. You think you can? Well, some things we do unconsciously like heartbeats.. Mine beats all the time since 1989. Unconsciously. The body keeps us alive, we are what are we eating, and what we are doing for activities. It's not the body who decides, it's our minds. So powerful, don't you think? Control your mind and be good to yourself, your body, your heartbeat. Feel yourself!
"Take care of your body. It's the only place you have to live. " // Jim Rohn

It's important to feel good. There will be bad days, I have them too, but don't forget about yourself. Sleep enough, feed yourself what you think is best for you, keep the eating schedules, develop yourself and mind. Mind is a powerful weapon. Use it wisely.

Remember, even in bad day you can do your best. (Read: How to give your best performence)

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Is the coach a good guy or bad one?

" He was my coach and I was his goalkeeper." /A.Irbe

In my opinion, during the practice and a game the coach is like your father. The person you can trust and you are the person been trusted. Playing in a team makes us a big family. In women team it's relationship called "sisters and father" in men team it's " brothers and father" relationships. I haven't played in team jet where the coach is a women, but I hope one day I will experience it too. The both kinds should be quite similar to my understanding about this relationships, but I might be wrong.

Daughter and Father relationship.
As a player you have to show your best to get the sympathies and trust from the coach's side. The coach, the father, have to accept and see your abilities and skills, give feedback when it's necessary and keep the communication on air for all the time. For a player it's important to listen and catch this information to get and reach the perfection, easily saying become the best or most valuable player as a defender, forward or goalie during the strive to excellence. (read: How to give your best performance) Everything you do, you do it for yourself and your development not because someone else said than you have to, but than you said it to yourself than you just have to do it to come closer to your best performance.

To be a coach is a seriously tough role. As a coach you have to see all your "daughters" working together and find the best match. As a coach you have to see the personality of each other girl, have to find the way how to talk with them and find the way how to get out of them what you want or what you see in your vision. As a coach you have to know and have to see the skills, ambitions and goals in every player.

As a coach you have to love every player as the way they are like their father. And every player should reach for perfectionism in self to become the best in action and communication with leaders and "sisters". Not only the coach have to see the skills in others, not only the coach have to give a feedback.


The all community of one Team is like a spider web or two or three spider webs together. Depends how big community is. There will always be the crossing, matching point for every part of that web. At the matching point all kind of communications comes together and every thread in this web is so important. Tighten together it becomes so strong than it's almost impossible to broke it. That's what makes perfectionism of the Team.

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One day I feel like I want to become a coach. And my answer to this question is: There is no good or bad coach. Coach is a person surrounded by players and his coaching is equal to players ambitions and power of will to become best. (?)Is there bad coaching? If there is, would you (as a coach) call yourself a coach if you wouldn't do your best same as players do? (Do players do their best? )
Coach is a person who decides this role (to be good or bad one). The person who asks and wants so much for perfectionism than sometimes he have to give up on it and try to push, get out of others maximum they are ready to give. I might say sometimes as a player we forget to give more understanding to them and show more power of will. Coach is a team player. Same as all of us. We are here to give our 100%. Same as they. Respect that too!

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How to give your best performance?

It's simple. Actually everything is simple. It just takes a lot of small steps to end up there.

My answer is: Do what you love, love what you do. Do your best every time you do it.
We know everyone gets a bad days. Remember, even in bad days you can do your best. Fight the little battles with yourself and you will be closer to your goal- the vision/ inside feeling you see yourself at the top.

Pure your mind. Don't think about anything other than just your success. No one else can be involved in this game, if someone does, it means the competition, and where starts competition, envy gets involved. When envy gets involved, you may start to "step over the dead" and if you do that afterwards someone will do the same to you. It sometimes may take a time, but it always comes back to you sooner or later. So,  "Don't treat the others the way you don't want to be treated."
This is game you have to win over yourself. Just you. Your performance.
Compete with yourself, make the new goals, believe and say to yourself: I can do this! I will do this! I want to do this! I am doing it! I am on it! It doesn't matters how many small steps or battles you have to fight with yourself, how long time it may takes, just go ahead to your goal! Stretch your hand up in a sky and reach for the greatness, reach for the stars and imagine yourself standing with head held high, closed eyes, nose pointing into the sky, your other hand on your heart and your lips mumbling: I am here. I did it. I am on the top! I am touching the star. I am that star! Feel the greatness! Imagine!

You know you can be there, right!? Up in the sky. But sky's not the limit.

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