Just make me feel wanted and appreciated, and I will move the mountains!

It's been a while again. Sorry for long wait- time. Hope this one is going to be worth the wait.
Sometimes I sit and want to write something.. meaningful. Is it? Or is this another crap none reader founds valuable?

Values. As older I get as more I appreciate the values of people, my time, my energy, impact on other person, environment... I am 28 for the record.

As the player these previous years I have not been so self-rigorous when asking the clubs to give me that or this. Was it a mistake? I regret nothing. There is no point of regretting what has already been done. I cherish the opportunities I took and countries I saw. I am thankful for all lessons  I have learned, people I have get rid of (as strange as it sounds) and new ones I value the most.

The last three years have  hit me the hardest. I were playing and aiming high in three different nations:
In january 2015, in the middle of the season I joined Swedish Kais Mora. We won Gold that spring. I continued in their juniors team after that year. (Its another story). In december, after the World Championships, I were asked if I want to go to Czech Republic. I didnt had a place in A-team, so why dont take the chance and get away from Sweden? I did, despite I were studying my 1st year at University.
From January 2016, I was property of Czech Republic team Vitkovice. So far this is the best team I have been playing for where my needs where met and for so long I finally felt needed and appreciated for exactly who I am as a goalie. The chamber of club of Vitkovice, (subconscious) took away two big stress factors: paying the rent and having the job. I were payed floorball player of curtain amount of money and full time student. It was perfect for me. Better than I could ever imagine. So is this how it feels to be really a PRO? We won Gold in Czech Republic that Year. That was also my best year of well-being as a goalie.  After 4 month, I returned back to Sweden to continue my studies.

Season 2016/2017 I started with 2nd highest league team Sundsvall IBF up in Northen Sweden. In summer I had already signed the contract with Swiss team from january 2017 until may, so it was done already, that I am going to Switzerland in Year-shift. It took 4h to drive up to Sundsvall one way. It took a lot of energy. But how could I know it, if I never tried? To move to Sundsvall wasnt an option to me, because of the University in Falun and we (I and Sundsvall) knew that I will go to Switzerland. Moving takes energy and occurs a lot of psychological stress. Some time I drew to Sundsvall to play the "home game" which was actually a "Away-game". It takes a strong mental attitude to perform at your best when hitting the road for 4 hours in  row.

In beautiful Switzerland I were a full-time student, a worker and a floorball player. The language was a pain and even communication in english within work and team was tough for me and other as well. We all failed at this one and made it thought for each other. What I experienced about goaltending in Switzerland was that their floorball culture is specific- old fashioned way. Goalie: a person who sits in goal and catch bolls. Preference if goalie takes the space only by its body, not verbal. I didnt feel at my best at all. I also got too low iron level in my blood, which leaded to both physical and psychological circumstances.
How can you perform when experiencing a lot of stress factors: like have to go to work, pay the rent, write examinations and read a lot of course literature, practice and deal with bullying as a goalie. Its way too strong word: bullying, but I will use it anyway. As a goalie, I want floorball world to count with our position more than ever and more seriously! We are valuable part of the team. The whole defense build from and within us. If the basis is not working property, will defense do? 

I returned to Sweden in May 2017. By car. I drew to and back from Switzerland with my baby-car.

I know that moving away from Mora (that is where I have my base for last 3 years now) somewhere else is not an option for now. This summer I got a call from Swedish Highest league team and few 2nd highest and 1st division teams. I have choose to play for 2nd highest league team Strömsbro IF in Gävle. Its 2h drive from Mora and 1 h from Falun and University. Not too much or too less of a challenge. Lagom as swedes might say.

When I came back from Switzerland, I were concerned to focus on my last year at University. But it a World Championships this december!! I needed to play.
I study sport coaching for elite athletes. Just wait when I finish.. I will be an awesome floorball goalie/defense coach, ready to join a team in whenever in world it might sound interesting. Japan maybe? Just make me feel wanted and appreciated, and I will move the mountains!

//GoalieThinking