what's the goalie biggest fear?

Everyone fear something. From time to time or all the time. Constantly.

This is personal.
This is my fear.

Every game goalie have... is something special. This "fight: Who will start at goal" for every game is tough. A lot of players and don't even coaches know this feeling, which actually is on the whole season. This fight most familiars to goalies and reservists. You don't know the feeling until you know the feeling."Walk the Talk" calls it. What I meant to say than every game is precious.

The truth about this goalie, me, is than I love this sport by whole my heart. I even believe it has saved my life! (why's that? Read it here.) I love to analyze my mistakes to get better and better and I love to remember the awesome saves which gave the adrenaline to my body and smile on my lips afterwards. I love to do my best! I love to found the ways to become better and be closer to my best "goalie shape". It's mental and it's physical. At this moment I can't describe the my ideal goalie shape ( if I do, it means I will analyze it again and again), but I know than one day I will feel than this is it- I don't want to go further. I have become the goalie I wish for! I believe you can only feel it. It's the only way how to know what's right. The heart knows the answers. We just have to be brave enough to not to let the mind get scared. And that's tuffy!

What I am scared of than I will give up before I reach it. But I feel like I am done soon... The truth is the floorball don't put the food on my table. The truth is I am more than a goalie in life. I have so creative and beautiful soul to be exposed! That's something I want to make a living of. That's somewhere I want to start to build my family and settle down. I don't want to reach from team to team, change town by town. I don't want to put my energy in fights which costs a stress and sad face. I want to stay ambitious as I am and be the only one who gets any kind of effect from that! I don't want to if you don't want that!

My biggest fear is to give up in middle of the game. It has happened, but it's only me who have noticed that. I fear of the day I will give up on myself. On other fight- the fight with myself to be better and better one.

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