I'm the super control freak and I make it look so sweet, but I lost control of myself.
Never remain to defeat. Always trying to compete, but I just defeated myself.
How the mighty have fallen!
What an end of to the story!
I never thought I seen myself so lonely...
The day has come again when I feel lonely. No ones fault, but mine.
Have you ever experienced the feeling in the net when you want your teammates to be successful at defense and score so you kind of have forgotten about your own performance to be at its best?
Its something every goalie experiences, I believe. It's kind of good. It's the part of learning.
It's another "kind of being selfish" in net when I focus too much maybe what others do or not do, so I kind of forget to focus on my own performance, my own ability to predict the danger situation in net.
For example in my new team I have been too much (?) about how defense should work and how I want them to work together with me as a goalie. But since there is a language barrier the communication is not reaching it's highest understanding between every and each player.
It's almost play-off time here... Do I have to "waste my energy" too much on this one or just go with a flow? If I skip to worry and try to increase the level of defense... I have to stop. It's not kind of my responsibility, or is it?
If this song might be me I might sound like a control freak, but I believe that every and each has to be a little control freak too.
I guess the best I can do is just to focus on my own performance. I might get emotionally destroyed after a stupid mistake, but it has to be more people who might care as much as I might do.
And for a record this is just a hobby we do. Floorball is a hobby.
I am a control freak but I lost the control of myself.
I am aware of this quality of mine.
It's kind of not good. But still it's good.
I am just a goalie who wants to lift the whole teams performance...
I am just a human..
I never thought I seen myself so lonely...
with love to goaltending,
//99
//99
