Big G. Gameday.

I should pack my bag. We (my team) are leaving in 3 hours but I am still in bed chillin' with my breakfast. Still don't have any desk.. I have to fix one. I slept bad tonight. This is going to be a sleepy buss-tour soon. I hope my thoughts will back off and leave me for a little while. I hope I am not going to cry. (I hope there will not going to be war in Latvia and nowhere else too. Why can't we- intelligent people make it stop!? None likes to be called stupid or idiot, but that's what we are if we can't make a Peace between countries. We all are idiots. Anti- Heros!! )

Tonight we will stay at hotel and tomorrow we will be leading to Umeå. It's Gameday tomorrow.

Gameday. Gameday you write always with Big G! Always! As goalies, as I know, it's privilege to play a game. I found it more stressful by siting on bench and couldn't find the way to help the team as you do on field. But as people say, teammates and coaches- you have to give energy from beside too. And I do. You do all what's best for Team. Always! Team you wrote with Big T too. (I should remember that.) Team is a bunch of people who cares about each other and you care about them.

It's Valentine's day. Saturday. I am not going to be bitter here, so wish you all a very best of Valentine's day with lot's of Love and so... And to all brokenhearted- deal with it. Move on. Fall in love again. Just keep in faith in Love. Love comes again. (Just what a hack do I know about Love..?.)
Still heart of mine is processing the healing-part. Just giving myself a time. Time cures, they say. Ha! (Being asshole now. I think it's true.Time cures and that's the gap of time when we learn how to move on.)

Packing- buss- hotel- breakfast- lunch- buss to Umeå- Game- buss- "home"-sleep- monday= my weekend.

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Moving again.

I have moved again. Last time I was a goalie in SSL (Swedish Super League) was with team Sala Silverstaden season 2013/2014. Took a break.  Felt in love, didn't work out. I wanted to runaway so I went to Norway. Felt disappointed at myself than I decided to leave Sweden just because I let my heart to be broke. Felt wrong. Moved back to Visby- my first "home" in Sweden. Started to study Swedish in gymnasium level. Felt right for few month. In November I kept in touch with Division 1 Köpings IBK's team and SSL Kais Mora. In January I moved to Köping and become goalie coach for clubs goalies. Fantastic time! Fantastic people! Grateful for this time in my Life!
At the end of the January I moved to Mora.
I know who I am and what can I do. The first step for me is to trust myself as a goalie again. I do already, but I feel the gap between where I was, where I am  and where I can be. Next step is to earn trust from my new team and supporters. I usually say, than game starts from defense. It starts with goalie on field and coaches on side. Without trust in goalie and strong defense it's hard to win, I like to think.

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